Around this time last year—July 23, 2021 for those keeping track at home—Billie Eilish released her album Happier Than Ever, which begins on this thought
I'm getting older, I think I'm aging well
I wish someone had told me I'd be doing this by myself
I listened to this album for the first time on a hot hot summer evening in 2021, one of those nights when I was certain New York was about to be declared an official tropical climate, while walking south on Prospect Park West. A picturesque scene: tree branches heavy with summer blooms careening over my head. Street lights coming on as the sun set. Families laughing as they exited the park. A rare moment out and about for me during a year where I spent most of my evenings indoors watching The Sopranos. Less because I was afraid of getting sick, and more because I was afraid of who to be. I’d left all the group chats unread. Not many knew where to find me. I think a lot of us felt isolated in 2021. Spiraling in our own unique ways. Mystery can be lonely. But no one wanted to talk about it! This topic comes up over and over and over again with many friends.
“Oh I was in a bad place last year.”
“Me too.”
“We all were!”
We were all going through it and somehow convinced that everyone else was having a great time. Why is that? Anyway, that evening in Summer 2021 when I was walking down Prospect Park West was one of those days when I was trying against all odds to to thrive. But I heard those lyrics and did a spit take, and then these
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday, I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much until we don't
Last summer when Happier Than Ever came out, while I was walking down Prospect Park West, Billie Eilish was only 19. Yet time was already heavy on her mind. This isn’t too much of a surprise though because Billie Eilish was born with an Aquarius Moon. Comfort for her (and for all Aquarius Moons) requires a deep knowing of all that has happened and of all that is possible. No detail is unimportant.
Last summer when Happier Than Ever came out, it was July 23, 2021 and there was a Full Moon in Aquarius conjunct Saturn. Today (8/11) at 9:35 PM EDT, there’s another Full Moon in Aquarius conjunct Saturn. This Full Moon is a reality check. It’s sobering. Boundaries must be set. It’s an opportunity to build something for real this time.
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